BritAnnia

I tend to have a lot a faith. Like if you tell me that you're writing a novel and I think to myself "hm what if this is the next big thing, the next best seller, it could be amazing." and then I read the first sentence of the 5th chapter on a whim in small hopes of finding an amazing opening one liner but instead it's mediocre and flat. And in a way I'm sorry for that, and I apologize. I think, what if this is the way life is, it's just normal vs abnormal realities with ups and downs and coincidences, and when you really work your ass off sometimes it pays off and sometimes it still doesn't.

I sit here and there is still a spark inside me thinking that it will just all work out, it will just all pan out. But then I watch the first 3 minutes of Monster and I realize most of the time I must be kidding myself, if this opening scene holds any truth. 
The fact is that Aileen Wuornos died of lethal injection in a state prison. John Locke and Jack Sheppard died on that bloody island, and the Kwan's drowned in each others arms. Don't get Lost, I'm talking about the tv show. Harry Potter is over, the largest woman in the world had a heart attack and was buried in a queen sized coffin. 


I'm not trying to be depressing. My message is good. I'll let you know when I find it.